Monday, September 18, 2017

 

Feeling stuck, confused, and unmotivated to see past my reality. I’m not the best at dealing with my feelings. I usually just suppress them until I get to a breaking point. What I've come to realize is that my lack of dealing with my emotions was causing a major road block in my growth of self. Even with me knowing that my emotions were the cause of me not growing I still refused to deal with them. By me not dealing with my feelings I didn't know what direction I should've been going in. Then, I started questioning self and tried to figure out what was wrong with me. The thing is nothing is wrong with me; I just needed to ask myself the right questions. What should I do next?

The answer to that question is to pay close attention to my feelings, and not to ignore them.

 
 
 
 

It's so unhealthy to hold in how we feel. We must find a healthy way to release those emotions. The most important and most challenging thing we must do during this process is, to be honest with ourselves. Sometimes I still have a hard time being honest about how I feel. I would mask how I felt because I didn't want people to see my imperfections. I didn't want people to see what I thought was me being weak. Being that way was blocking me from seeing growth. What if I showed how I was truly feeling, then someone could've helped me with what I was experiencing. Don't be afraid for people to see the real you, and don't be afraid for YOU to see the real YOU

 
 
 
 
 

I know facing your feelings isn't an easy task, but you will soon see much growth. I also had to learn how not to concern myself with what people were thinking of me. Just remember that you aren't weak, you're just human, and you're not alone. Acknowledge your feelings and unblock your journey so that you can continue your way to your purpose.

Thank you for reading! 
Remember to smile, and be Purposely You! ๐Ÿ˜
By: Racquel Bianca John 

Photographer: Pam John 

Tuesday, July 18, 2017


Sitting in silence: a process we must go through to understand who we are, but it requires for us to be by ourselves. 



I feel as if this process happens naturally with the course of life.  Keep in mind that this process will occur more than once in your lifetime because we’re always growing. Think of it as “The Preparation Phase." Every time you encounter this phase, it will feel unfamiliar to you. This process happens because you're getting ready to enter into a new level of self-awareness. During this time it's essential that we go on this journey by ourselves. Not to the point of total isolation, but just enough to understand what we need to learn. 



Sitting in silence can be terrifying, but at the same time very peaceful. It's terrifying because we are left to deal with the ugly truth of ourselves, and it's peaceful because we develop an understanding of who we are. This phase in life teaches us many valuable lessons. You learn more about yourself, your purpose, how to have a healthy thought process, and how to heal from the pain of your past. To discover and learn these things about self we have to master the process of letting go. 




Honestly, letting go during this process was one of the best decisions I could've made. Once I surrendered to the silence, I learned how to pay attention to the small details of life. Noticing the little detail of life taught me something essential, patience. Trust me you're going to need a ton of patience during your journey. So, don't keep putting off this time to discover yourself with being busy of the world. Take these precious moments of silence to love and understand who you are. 


Thank you for reading! 
Remember to smile, and be Purposely You! ๐Ÿ˜
By: Racquel Bianca John 

Photographer: Pam John 

Outfit:
Shirt: Forever 21
Jeans: Express 
Shoes: Merona 
Thursday, May 18, 2017

 
Everyone wants to fit in, to be a part of something or someone that is bigger than themselves. I remember, as a young girl, wanting to fit in with the "cool kids" at school. There was a desire I had wanted to be approved by them. Back then having the approval of the "cool kids" meant that you weren't "lame" and that you would gain everyone's respect. Well, I never got that wish of fitting in, and I'm forever grateful for it. Let me explain why. 

 
 
By me not fitting in made me have to value and approve myself. It meant I had to get to know myself and be willing to accept who I was. Accepting yourself isn't easy, and it's an arduous process, but it's worth it at the end. Also, you have to be willing to do the work alone. It will help you build strength and a solid foundation within yourself. The key is to know that deep down inside you're good enough for you. ๐Ÿ˜Œ

 
 
 
Once you start this process, you no longer desire the praises and approval of others. You don't need permission from others to be you, or to fulfill your happiness, or to be a part of something bigger than yourself. If you want to fulfill that desire of being a part of something bigger, then search for your purpose. Knowing your purpose will give your life meaning and will bring an understanding to who you are. Honestly, I'm still learning about myself and accepting my journey. ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿฝ

 
 
 

This journey isn't easy, and there will be days when you want to give up. However, don't give up. Allow God to approve you because, in the end, His approval is the only one that matters. Just keep pushing. ๐ŸŒŸ


Thank you for Reading! 
Remember to smile, and be Purposely You! ๐Ÿ˜
๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฝ By: Racquel Bianca John 

๐Ÿ“ธ Photographer: Pam John 

Outfit
Bomber Jacket: Forever 21
Shirt: Forever 21
Skirt: Loft
Shoes: Rock & Republic 
Sunglasses: Loft 









Wednesday, May 10, 2017


Step back, look at yourself in the mirror, and dig deep. Stare into your eyes, which will lead you to your soul. What do you see? How do you feel? Do you see you for you, or do you see yourself from the perspective of others? If I'm, to be honest, I believe we tend to view ourselves from the viewpoint of others. It's a combination of things as to why we do this but, I won't speak on those. I'll just speak from my experiences. When I stared at myself in the mirror, I realized that this wasn't going to be easy. I immediately started to cry because I knew what I thought of myself wasn't right or healthy. It was scary viewing myself the way I did just because of other people's opinions. What made it worse was that I didn't value myself very much. I'm way better now though (Thank God!), and I know I went through this to help someone.

 

At the time, I was prevented from seeing my worth and blocked myself from growing into the person I knew I could be. The day we place value on people's opinions is the day we will lose ourselves. That's what happened to me. A red flag went up when I realized that their thoughts (other people) became mine. That's when I knew it was time to dig deep and soul search for my worth. Your worth comes from your light that shines from within. However, you won't see it if you keep giving people your power. I promise once you take back your power people will start to see your light shine. They'll no longer feel the need to inflict their negativity on you. I'm here to tell you that YOU ARE MORE. 


You are more than what people say you are.
You are more than the clothes you wear.
You are more than the style of your hair.
You are more than your past.
You are more than your pain.
You are more than what people use to compare and put a value to. 
You are more than what the eye can see. 

If you've ever felt like you don't belong, or that you're always doing something wrong. Trust me when I say that you do belong, and there's NOTHING wrong with you. God made you perfectly, and with a unique purpose for your life.


Photographer: Pam John

Thank You for Reading!
Remember to smile, and be Purposely You! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
By: Racquel Bianca John 
Tuesday, March 7, 2017

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Sometimes you just have to take a break. So I took a mini vacay to Los Angeles ๐ŸŒด to reset my mind. I will say that it was a challenge for me to allow myself this well-needed break. It was challenging because, for as long as I can remember, I've always put an insane amount of pressure on myself to be successful. For me, that meant that I always had to work and if I wasn't working that meant I would miss an opportunity. Another thing, taking a break made me feel like I was losing control because that meant I had to be still. The older I become, the more I'm able to realize that that much control isn't healthy.๐Ÿ˜ญ It stopped me from growing into the person I want to be, and I end up missing out on life. Instead of just living,  I would go through the mental process of wondering if a decision was right or wrong. I began to realize that the only opportunity I would be missing out on was enjoying life, and no one can afford to miss that.

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It's important for us to take breaks in between work, so we don't lose our minds or worse lose our way. You never want to be so overwhelmed that you start to question who you are, or your purpose. All great things take time. So don't be afraid to fail. Just because we may fail at something doesn't make us failures. It just means that we're human, and being human that's one of the many ways we learn how to grow. So pace yourself. Don't jump ahead and skip steps to get there faster because you will burn yourself out. Give your mind, body, and soul a break. Reset your energy and atmosphere. If we're focusing on being successful, then we will get in our way. We also can't hear from God when we're focused on the things that only He can control. When we take these breaks and finally let go everything starts to fall into place. So be kind to yourself and take a break. Remember to: Pause, stop, and reset. You will thank yourself later. ๐Ÿ˜

Photo By Isaiah 

Thank You for Reading!
Remember to smile, and be Purposely You! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
By: Racquel Bianca John 

Friday, February 10, 2017

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Each day, for me, is like a rebirth, which means I don't have to wait until next year to be a better me. A new day gives me the opportunity to start over and have a clean slate. Life can get pretty hectic and very overwhelming at times. For instance: You set goals that you didn't meet. The pressure of wanting to be successful. Relationships feel unsteady. The mistakes you've made and the mistakes you will make (it happens to everyone). Questioning if you really should have eaten that slice of pizza (this is me all the time). The need to exercise more. Dealing with the stigmas of society, and the list goes on and on. See, just reading this list is overwhelming enough. It's not healthy to be overwhelmed because it just clutters your mind, which then leads you to be frustrated. Then you really can't get anything done. So... my advice is to first and foremost FORGIVE YOURSELF! Forgiving ourselves is the most challenging thing for us to do. We tend to beat ourselves up about life. Especially if we haven't accomplished enough, or for the simple mistakes we make along our journey. Carrying the weight of guilt from a mistake is draining and will stop you from progressing in life. We are to learn from our mistakes, and not to condemn ourselves for making them. Another thing, don't be afraid to make mistakes. The fear of making them stops us from trying new things or taking chances on opportunities. Don't wait to forgive yourself. Clear your mind and just start over. You will feel as if a boulder has lifted off your shoulders once you've allowed yourself a clean slate. Honestly, it's something we all deserve. Take it day by day and moment by moment. What helps me stay on track each day is by me focusing on my purpose. By me doing that I'm able to discern what's truly important in life. When we Put things in perspective, it brings peace and happiness into our lives. It's also the key to a clear mind. So when you wake up tomorrow, see it as an opportunity, a fresh start, to a clear mind and a better you.  


 
 
 

Thank you for Reading! 
Remember to smile, and be Purposely You! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
By: Racquel Bianca John 

Photographer: Ian John 

Outfit
Shirt: Loft 
Jeans: LEVIS
Shoes: DSW (old)
Bag: Ann Taylor